This one is an extension of the first article.
It took me a while to be normal but the fact that I have this condition and that it’s OK.
It’s part of who I am and I don’t have to prove that it’s not.
It took me a while to really know that I am more than just this condition, a while before I felt that in a desperate attempt to prove that actually means that somewhere deep inside there is insecurity within myself that doesn’t really believe that I am more than my condition.
But as life happens and as you evolve you realize that the only things you desperately try to prove are the ones you don’t believe yourself.
For example – no one on earth tried to prove “I am a male” (except for the transgender people struggling with gender identities)
But “I am a man” has a different story altogether
Toxic masculinity only exists because that statement comes with doubt and ambiguity since it’s not clear what it really means to be a ‘man’. I don’t think toxic masculinity or even domestic violence would exist if no man was insecure about his manhood.
Without getting too far are they trying to make is, it was part of my insecurity and I myself did not completely believe that I am more than this condition. This condition is a part of me but it is not the whole of me.
That it is me. But I am not this!
And realize that is mine seeing how I have been carrying a mountain on my back.
The burden of proving it to myself and to others.
And then suddenly realizing that I don’t need to carry this burden so gently putting it down and becoming completely light!
I suppose this is what it feels like to get rid of self-doubts and insecurities!